Things I’ve done on Abilify: cleaned the kitchen so many times and disinfected the garbage can and tomorrow I think I will oil the counters and create new programs for the lights in my house based on different types of weather and times of day. I’ve cleaned the toaster and the range hood, the toilets, the windows. I walked to the shop at 6:45am to buy a banana for breakfast. I’ve scrubbed bits and taken apart my bridle, I’ve done my hair and bought new outfits for work, steamed them, got new bathroom towels and a matching loofah even though loofahs are pretty gross balls of skin cells, ordered tags for my halters, labelled my saddle pads, hunted down some colonial witch shoes, got all the things I’ve needed but who can really bother with boring things like that ordinarily? There’s no reason to go to bed with water droplets on the faucet. My psychiatrist does not see a problem with this. I don’t either while I’m doing it but when I run out I can’t stand it. I’ve never been bored before that I can remember in my whole life but I am bored now. I wish at least that the activation was not so mindlessly practical. The only thing I am not interested in doing is eating food. But if that’s the worst of it complaining seems ridiculous. Previous atypical antipsychotic side effects have been a complete loss of short term memory, having the same conversation 5 times in a row, having my sister fly from a different continent to visit me and me having no recollection of it at all, sleeping 23 hours a day, having to take leave from grad school because I couldn’t move. So really really wanting to sand my coffee table at midnight isn’t the worst that can happen.